Monday, August 30, 2010

Hope and Faith

Il s'agit d'une histoire de deux lundis. Rappelez-vous le 1er lundi quand vous avez commencé l'idée? Vous m'avez envoyé un message dans la matinée que vous avez voulu manquer l'école. Mais à la fin n'a pas. Alors vous êtes allé à l'école. Ce même matin, nous avions préfets réunion. Vous m'avez dit que vous étiez emo. Parce que votre ami a envoyé un message disant qu'il allait attendre votre retour à ses côtés. La raison en est parce que vous pensiez de la séparation. C'est l'espoir qui m'a été donnée par vous. Ensuite, le deuxième lundi, le lundi après mon anniversaire. Rappelez-vous la marche vers le marché pour le petit déjeuner? Rappelez-vous que d'ici là, vous portiez cette veste? Alors, je vous ai demandé de porter une chemise, mais vous avez refusé parce que vous avez dit que j'étais là. C'est la foi qui m'a donné indirectement de me dire que vous avez foi en moi, pour vous protéger. Il m'a donné l'espoir et la foi. Puis le reste est silence.

Il aurait pu être moi

Sunday, August 29, 2010

my 100th post~~

Nous voulions les uns les autres quand nous ne sommes pas censés le faire. Nous avons examiné les uns les autres dans les yeux quand nous ne sommes pas censés le faire. Nous aspirait à autre lorsque nous ne sommes pas censés le faire. Nous voulons que l'autre à nos côtés lorsque nous ne sommes pas censés le faire. Mais, nous ne s'aiment comme nous sommes censés le faire. Nous nous sommes embrassés les uns les autres comme si nous étions censés le faire. Nous s'embrassaient comme si nous étions censés le faire. Nous avons passé ensemble comme des fois que nous sommes supposés. Nous prenons soin les uns des autres comme si nous étions censés le faire. Tu devais être ici avec moi, je devais être là pour vous. Mais, tu m'as quitté parce que vous êtes censé et je comprends les raisons, parce que je suis censé le faire. Nous vivons aujourd'hui notre vie normalement, comme nous sommes censés le faire.


Je serai toujours là pour toi, quand je suis censé le faire.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

a new chapter

Hell lot of things happened lately. I was down, really down but I'm not staying down forever. I never will. This time, I will get back up. Standing tall with my own two feet. Nothing can keep me down forever. I am strong. This is not the last of me. You will see more of me. This a new start, a new day, a new dawn, a new chapter. You may be gone, but my heart and soul is still here with me. I will rise up stronger than ever. It's just a matter of time.

I will be back

Thursday, August 26, 2010

You were my everything.

Perhaps the lyrics is not really true but, I'm just trying to express myself. 

Aviation - You Were My Everything


[Talking:]
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn't realize it at the time
I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don't really expect you to either
It's just... I don't even know
Just listen…

You're the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it's raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt
But I didn't know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You're number one, always in my heart
And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I'm not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you'll always be in my heart
You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can't take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there
I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn't think you would ever do me like this
I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed
I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying
Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]

[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we'll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy
Will you stay happy?

Taeyang - Move (feat. Teddy)

Taeyang - Move (feat. Teddy) English Lyrics.

I hope time stops
Tell me your sincerity
I want you really badly
Nothing can stop me
When I put my hand on your hips
I can't hear the surrounding sounds
Or anything at all, I can only see you

You don't like being slow either
Let's move more faster
In my heart, tell me you want to feel me
Match this music together, 1, 2, 3
Let's dance together under the magnificent lighting
Now, oh baby, we become one

Baby, don't stop
This time for the two of us we've waited for
We'll keeping going 1 step and 2 step and
Hold my hand tightly and move more

Move, move
Baby, don't stop it
Move, move
Baby, don't stop it

We don't have time, come closer
Hug me

I talk to you, we become hotter
Truthfully, it's hard for me to resist your sweating image

When I hold you in my arms
When I place my lips on your forehead
Look at the foolish me who is reflected in your eyes

You don't like being slow either
Let's move more faster
In my heart, tell me you want to feel me
Match this music together, 1, 2, 3
Let's dance together under the magnificent lighting
Now, oh baby, we become one

Baby, don't stop
This time for the two of us we've waited for
We'll keeping going 1 step and 2 step and
Hold my hand tightly and move more

Move, move
Baby, don't stop it
Move, move
Baby, don't stop it

We don't have time, come closer
Hug me tonight

The reason why I can't take my hands off her is her figure's so tight
Such a beatiful view like them Vegas lights
Shawty, when it comes to you, you know I never think twice
And your body is ma wonderland, I could play all night

So just move, move, baby, don't stop it
I cock it and load it, call me Mr. Big Rocket
You so precious, face shinin' like crystals
I'm so vicious like saving my sex pistols

Sometimes you move fast, sometimes you move slow
I could never get it if you got me feel it for more
Niagra falls, baby girl, I got you wetter than
Trust me on this one, you'll never find a better man

Baby, don't stop
This time for the two of us we've waited for
We'll keeping going 1 step and 2 step and
Hold my hand tightly and move more

Move, move
Baby, don't stop it
Move, move
Baby, don't stop it

We don't have time, come closer
Hug me tonight


CREDIT:
Kawen-chan
http://whimsicalbeing.blogspot.com
Hangul & Romanization: justhyuu@flowinglyrics // flowinglyrics@twitter
Translation: kimchi hana @ Soompi

We could've been great together

The End

Exams has just ended. 19 days has just ended. My love life has just ended. Don't ask me how, don't ask me why. It just did.

Things end.

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Exam break

There will be no update since a few days ago until the end of my exam. I will be busy studying for my exams. There will be no update until after exam. Tata.

Life is a test/

Saturday, August 14, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 7

The Tale of 19 Days:

13.08.2010, Day 7.

6:00 A.M. :-
Wakey wakey my love. Morning. Slept well? Hopefully, you did. I miss the times when I can still call you every morning before going to school and hear that sweet voice of yours.

12:13 P.M :-
You came late to school today. I wondered what delayed your arrival to school. Overslept maybe? Or you came out from your house late and there was a massive traffic jam? Well, it doesn't matter. At least you still came to school and I still get to see you in school. Seeing you is enough as we rarely talked lately. The sight of you is enough to make me happy. 

1:57 P.M. :-
I just finished my lunch. Today's a Friday. Remember what we did for the past few Fridays baby? We would stay back and go for our respective meetings then after that we would meet at my house. I always wait for you to reach my house before we go up to my house together. We would rest for a moment then have lunch together with my parents. One of us would crack a joke during lunch then we would laugh about it. Todays lunch felt different without you here. Even the food is as tasty. Will I ever have the chance to have lunch together with you again my love?

7:38 P.M. :-
Just finished cooking my own dinner and eating it. Hope that you had yours. Remember the other day when you were at my house and my mom went out then asked me to cook lunch? So I did, and you helped me in the kitchen. Nice moments, weren't they? Will you give me the chance to cook for you?

9:26 P.M. :-
I was just going through the times we had together. Remember that you said once that whenever you come over to my house, I would give you a tour around my house? We would first chill in my room, then I would show you the living room, my nonsense stuff around it. Soon, we would move on to the kitchen where I would let you taste whatever my mom cooked on that particular day. Then I would open the refrigerator to let you eat any sweets or chocolates that's in it. In the end, we would hug for awhile before you go home. I want to do that again. Do you?

11:16 P.M. :-
I'm back from work. Are you asleep yet baby? I'm thinking that you are since it's raining and it's very cooling at this time of the night. I want to call you and talk to you. It's been a long time since we talked. Oh well, good night. Sweet dreams baby. I love you.

Amazing from what love can do.

Friday, August 13, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 6

The Tale of 19 Days:

12.08.2010, Day 6.

6:01 A.M. :-
Good morning my dear. Had a good night sleep? Hopefully you did. Did you ever feel like you know what you're going to do even before you wake up? Because I knew that even before I'm wake up that I want to call you. I really do but I can't.

3:12 P.M. :-
Still in school. You should be getting ready for tuition now as I saw your car passing by McD. I recalled that we used to text as you're getting ready for your tuition. Like always you would always reach your tuition by 4 P.M. and we would text until almost 5 P.M. which is the time your tuition officially starts. It's been quite long that I received or sent a text from and to you. This is so frustrating because I want to text you so badly but I know I must get through this hurdle to do that.

4:39 P.M. :-
Just finished playing basketball in school. Currently in McD with my friends. When I was playing basketball, the ball hit my spectacles and I clashed head to head with one of my friend. I know that if I were to tell this to you by text, you would comfort me with your utmost caring words. I want to see those words again. The words that makes me smile. Words that tells me that I'm being loved by you. I miss them. Will I ever see them again?

8:11 P.M :-
At work now, sitting down thinking of you. Did you eat your dinner baby? Please do eat okay? What are you doing now I wonder? Studying for the upcoming exam perhaps? You know, I saw a girl with extremely long hair which reminded me about one night. Remember that there was a night that I was working and I texted you saying that I saw many beautiful girls? Then you jokingly said that you were emo because I would have the chance to cheat on you. I then reassured you that none of the beautiful girls can be compared to you as you are the most beautiful to me and that I won't cheat on you. Even now, if I was presented with the opportunity, I will not cheat on you. Cause I'm still longing for you.

9:52 P.M. :-
It's raining now. Reminds me of that night which we went for a night walk. We did walked under the rain holding each others hand. Treasuring the time we're having at that moment. Do you remember it my dear? I yearn to hold your hand so badly. We can walk under the rain for the whole night if you want to. I just want to be with you and nothing else.

11.23 P.M :-
Just reached home from work. I was listening to Make Love (English Version) by Big Bang. It brings back a memory that there was once I was singing this song to you while having my arms around you. After I'm done singing, we would kiss. I hope that there's a chance of that happening again. Well, you should be asleep by now. Good night baby. Sweet dreams. This lonely day without is passing soon. Tomorrow will be another day that I will be thinking you throughout the day.

Will you ever feel the same way?

Thursday, August 12, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 5

The Tale of 19 Days:

11.08.2010, Day 5.

6:02 A.M. :-
Morning love. Had a good sleep last night? Dreamed of anything? I dreamed that I was a cop with extremely good kung-fu. Haha. Oh baby, where's your voice in this silent morning? I miss it. I wanna hear it.

2:56 P.M. :- 
School ended. I'm staying back today. Are you? I thought you had RC meeting today? Didn't see your car at the car park though. Anyhow, staying back or not, do remember to eat your lunch ya.

4:58 P.M. :-
Just finished playing football. You would know cause you were there. I saw you smiling, I was happy that you were. But whether is it fake or real, I don't know. But I really hope that it's a real smile with emotions. The smile that I would smile to. The smile that by the sight of it, will make my whole day.

8:42 P.M. :-
I just finished my dinner. You should be having tuition right now. I hope that you did eat your dinner before you went for your tuition. I'm so empty without your presence around me. No text from you. No text to you. No calls to you. No calls from you. It's very quiet and empty over here. How about you my dear?

11:16 P.M. :-
Just had supper with my parents. You should be home from tuition by now.I remember that were nights like this that you would be bugging me that you want to go to sleep and I would purposely keep you awake just because I wanna text with you and see your name appearing on my phone. I miss those nights. Can I have those nights back soon? You should be going to sleep by now. Good night darling. Sweet dreams. I love you now more than ever.

Can you feel this love?

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 4

The Tale of 19 Days:

10.08.2010, Day 4.

6:02 A.M. :-
Morning my love. I believe that you're awake already. Did you have a good night sleep? I hope you did. I missed the time when I used to call you early in the morning on school days. I wanna call you, but I can't. Oh well, see in you school my love.

3:11 P.M. :-
I reached home from school. Heard that you went to McD to have a group study. Well, good luck in your studies. I know you will do well. Oh yeah, remember to have your lunch ya.

6:13 P.M. :-
Hey baby, I'm at work now. Have you reached home yet? You probably would be. What are you doing I wonder? Probably lazing around? Haha. I really miss you baby,

8:11 P.M. :-
Finished work way way earlier today. Went home to finish my assignment. This reminded me how you spurned me to do my homework, to do my assignments, to study hard. Well, because of this encouragement from you, I did finish quite alot of my homework I wish you were here now, to spur me on for my assignment.

12:04 A.M :-
Just finished my assignment. You should be asleep by now. While I was doing my assignment, I remembered the encouragement you gave me at times when I was not doing my homework. I had finished my assignment are slightly because of your inspiration. Well, it's about time to sleep now. Good night. Sweet dreams darling. The end of today signals the start of tomorrow. My hands wanna hold your hands.

You are the best thing that ever happened.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 3

The Tale of 19 Days:

09.08.2010, Day 3.

4:38 A.M. :-
You sent me a message saying that you wanna come over. I really hope you do. I wanna have my hands around you. I replied you, you haven't replied yet.

5:05 A.M. :-
We exchanged text. You decided not to come over. I accepted your decision, although I really wanted you to come.

4:39 P.M. :-
I reached home after going out with my mother for lunch. I remember the Mondays that you used to come to my house. We would always race back to my house. You would drive and I would take rapid. Today felt so different without that going on.

7:42 P.M. :-
Being bored at work as there is not much customers. How I wish that i could text you and you would cure my boredom. I miss seeing your emoticons.

9:08 PM :-
Customers are very few. I'm bored to death. I need you here to text with me. I wanna share a joke with you. There's so many things I wanna talk to you about.

11:09 P.M :-
Reached home from work. Tomorrow got school, so you're probably asleep. Good night sweetheart. Sweet dreams. Love you. As the clock will struck 12 soon, means a day has gone. A new day has begun. My heart still waits for you.

Every heart beat, beats of you.

Monday, August 9, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 2

The Tale of 19 Days:

08.08.2010, Day 2.

10:12 A.M. :-
Woke up. Wanted to call you but I can't. I miss hearing your voice through my phone. Had you eaten your breakfast yet? Where are you now? Are you still sleeping or are you outside somewhere? The thoughts continue.

2:54 P.M. :-
I'm having my lunch now. Have you had yours yet? Although I text my other friends, it didn't feel the same like texting you. I really wanna see your name pop up on my phone now.

10:13 P.M :-
Free from orders and currently watching football. I remember that night when I was watching World Cup and we were texting. We wished that we could be in each others arms. I wish that would happen soon.

11:55 P.M. :-
Just finished watching football. You're probably asleep. Good night my dear. Sugar dreams. Another day passes, the wait continues.

How am I gonna sleep without you?

Sunday, August 8, 2010

The Tale of 19 Days: Day 1

The Tale of 19 Days:

07.08.2010, Day 1.

2:47 P.M. :-
I wondered if you really walked home or not. If you did, I wondered did you reach home safely. Did you have your lunch? Or did you refuse to eat? Or did you decide to eat maggi mee?

4:13 P.M :-
It's reaching evening soon, are you having a nap now? Maybe you went out? Perhaps you are online? Or you were studying and doing your homework?

10:11 P.M.:-
Finally had time. Was busy the whole night as there was alot of customers since it's a Saturday night. A quiet night for my phone as it rarely rang. Did you have your dinner tonight? I hope you did. I hope that you had a good day today, and there's a smile on your face right now. As it's getting kinda late, probably you're asleep already? Or maybe you're just on your bed relaxing. Perhaps you're online? Chatting in msn or playing games in facebook?

11:04 P.M :-
Home from work. You should be asleep. Sweet dreams my love.

11:42 P.M :-
As I prepare to go to bed, how I wished that you wished me good night via sms. My baby angel, I missed you so. A day is gone, tomorrow awaits and the answer to this speculations gets an inch closer.

You are indeed an angel.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Story of His Life: Entry 008

Story of His Life: Entry 008


The last entry I explained about the horrifying event that happened to Chris. His father had been hit with a stroke and coincidentally, it was time for him to take his UPSR exam. Will he have the will to continue, will he do well in his final exam in his primary school? Other than that, can he still find the courage to confess to Alice? Today, I will slowly tell you about this.


So the final exam is finally here. The moment of every student in standard 6 had studied so hard for. So did Chris. So he sat for his exam and puts away all his distractions and thoughts and just concentrate on his exams. So after a few days, after all the exam has been taken. It is finally over. Now Chris can look forward to the holidays then after that secondary school. But one thing have to be done before he moves on the secondary school. To confess or not to confess?


So not long after, the last day of school has arrived. Chris had a walk with Alice, they chatted along the hallway and down the stairs from their class to the computer lab. Chris wanted to confess to Alice but in the end, he didn't had the guts to. So, the last day of school was his last chance and the chance was lost. So now, Chris can now only look forward to secondary school and find a girl that suits him.


Soon, Chris found out his results for his UPSR exam. He scored 4 A's and 1 B as predicted by him.A few weeks into the holiday, a call reached Chris' house. The call was too inform him that he was enrolled into St. Frederic Pierre Secondary School. He was overjoyed. St. Frederic Pierre at that time was the most prestigious secondary school.


So, now Chris had moved on from Alice, and had been enrolled into a prestigious secondary school. How will his life continue from here onwards? Will he continue to excel in his studies? Will he one day find the girl that suits him? I guess you will have to find out in the upcoming entries. Stay tune~ xD

Life's a miracle.

Disappeared.

Lol. Okay okay. I know I've been missing for awhile.
Approximately more than a month. Lol.
Sorry la. Too busy ma.
Where do I start?
Hmm, 
The King and I was finally over. It received a good reception. 
Joined prefects in school. Okay, I know it's hard to believe. But I'm a good prefect okay. Haha.
8th Georgetown (South) Sea Scout Group Annual General Meeting 2010 was conducted. I'm now officially the Assistant Scout Master in the troop, along with Chong and Shaun with Adrian as the Assistant Senior Scout Leader and Malcolm as the Troop Leader.
Recently, the PFS Inter-House Games 2010 just ended. I end up getting a silver medal for handball after helping Pinhorn in the finals eventhough I'm in Wu Lien Teh. Well, we have a friendly rivalry. We ain't like MU and MC. Lol.
Yesterday, went out to gurney, with Chong, Alvin, Chai, Shaun and 3 of PCGHS guides. Met my lovely daugther infront of the cinema. Bumped into Carmen there too. Watched Salt. Good movie.Expected ending. Angelina is hawt. xDD
Okay now more to what's happening in between, hmmm..
Started working from 6-11pm everyday to earn a little extra cash. 
Trying to cope studying and working at the same time. Working out quite well for not. We'll see what happen soon.

Can't let the music stop,
Can't let this feeling end.